My husband and I are going to a mini vacation in Orlando from this Friday – Sunday. I am sooooooooo excited. We’re going to shop Friday morning at the premium outlet (for my families) and then see a concert Friday night. On Saturday we are going to Walt Disney World. And then Sunday morning I’d like to get some more shopping done.
We will be staying at the Wyndham on I-drive. My husband bid for the hotel room today and he got it for $45 a night. Disney tickets are $65 a piece. I am just so excited that we’ll be able to go on a mini vacation without splurging so much. Some of our friends at work are going on vacations and they will be spending thousands. I gulped when I heard how much it cost them to vacation. We’re not poor but jeez, we just choose to travel smart.
I am so excited!!!!!!
oh and payday is this Thursday!! yay.
I don’t know what is going on this week. To start, I called my embassy in Houston, Texas and the person on the phone was yelling at me just because I did not renew my passport on time. He was yelling. I don’t know what his deal was. I was so shocked. I was speechless. He went on and on lecturing me on things he wanted to say and I did not want to hear. He gave me his judgement on why I was late in renewing my passport. I guess it was almost the end of the world in his dictionary. What a jerk. He must have had a bad day–I called late in the day. Or maybe someone stole his lunch. I don’t know but that was pretty bad. If that was an american doing that to me, I would have hung up the phone. No respect at all from the embassy. And the ironic thing was…. we’re from the same home country. I get more respect from people in this coutry.
So I decided to apply to get my US citizenship right about now. I found out that I am already eligible to apply so I printed out the applications, etc today. This will be my weekend project to figure out what needs to be done. That jerk from my embassy can kiss my ass.
Next. Seems like I can never write anything good about my work or the people that I work with. Ever. Anything about it is bad. Like a gum that sticks on the bottom of your shoes, it is annoying.
New Kids on The Block just announced that they are going to do a cruise tour. I got the text message the day before so I was so excited. The booking was opened today at 11. So last night, I checked out the website and gathered all the information I needed to book the cruise. The cheapest spot was about $800 + some security fees, etc … so total is about $1000 – $1100 for a 4 day cruise from Miami to Bahamas.
Now, this morning, soon as I got to work, I emailed my boss to tell him that I would like to take 2 days off in May. What did he say? He was not sure if he could give it to me. WTF. I was so pissed. So mad. Then time went by. Noon. Then late afternoon, my boss told me that he could give me the days off. OK. WTF. The cruise was almost booked. The cheaper spots were gone already and the ones left were $1500 – 2000 per spot. Do I look like I keep money under the bed??????? I was so so so so mad. I wanted this so bad and because of that idiot I missed the cruise and I am going to miss this and I am going to regret it for the rest of my life. It would have been ok for me to pay the $800 since I want to take my husband with me. But with $1500 per person…. there is no way we can afford $3000 cruise.
And to top it off……… today I found out I am not yet pregnant.
I just feel like things keep on rolling down the hills. I don’t know why I have this luck. Everything happens in less than a week span. All piled up. What am I doing wrong? Why me? Why why why???
All I wanted was one thing to go right because then everything else is going to be ok from that point on.
My husband arrived home tonight. Yay. I picked him up at the airport. He landed at 9.45. I was so excited to see him. I went to the airport directly from my Apologetic class tonight. I was actually early so I decided to detour to Walmart to get some Halloween decorations for the porch.
My husband said it was a lot warmer here than in New Jersey (where he went for few days). I asked how the visit went and he said it was good. He had the chance to meet his dad and his mom and his stepmom. He told me that his mom gave him money. When he counted, it was $2000. His uncle also gave him some money and he spent that money to buy me gifts.
My husband is so sweet. He bought me 2 gifts!!!! One is an Anne Klein watch I had been wanting to buy for a year!!!!! the other gift is a set of jade bracelet and earings. They’re so beautiful. I LOVE jade. I cannot believe my husband picked the perfect gifts for me. I am going to wear them all tomorrow!!!! I am going to show them to the girls at work. I bet they’ll be jealous. LOL.
I am so happy because my husband is home with me now. I thank God he arrived safely and he had a nice visit to New Jersey to see his families. He’s taking a day off from work tomorrow to recuperate. I think he deserves a day lazying around the house once in a while. I might ask him if he would like to have lunch with me tomorrow.
There is a bad news. I did not win the lottery tonight. Bummer. I thought I had the winning ticket. So close. Maybe next time. I know it’s going to be sooner than later. I cannot wait to win it!!!!!
Ok this is past my bedtime already but I need to read the Bible and say couple prayers to Virgin Mary, Miraculous Infant Jesus, and Saint Rita (Saint of the Impossible).
God Bless everyone.
I don’t know what God has in store for me after all these rains in my life. I hope I will see a rainbow.
Today was another not-so-good day for me. I was so sad last night. I cried so much my head hurt and I missed Gossip Girl!!! That was a big deal for me. I don’t usually miss my favorite shows for nothing. Anyways. After spending some time to pray and find comfort reading the Bible, I went to bed crying.
This morning I didn’t feel like going to work but I had to. Unfortunately. I wish I could have the day off. When I was at work, the 2 nice girls who sit next to me asked how the phone call went (with my parents). I told them what happened and I started crying. It really hit me what my dad told me last night. I have missed so many events in my family’s life. I never met my one nephew. And I missed my brother in law’s funeral. I couldn’t stop crying. I wished I had a genie who would make me invisible for 15 minutes to give me enough time to cry by myself. I just don’t think anyone would understand my situation. Not even my husband, I don’t think. And this is why it is so frustrating.
Before lunch, everyone in my group was talking about vacation and visiting families. I didn’t want to join the conversation because I knew it would be too emotional for me. So I just sat there quietly. Never said a word. I overheard my boss said something like, so should I go skiing or visit my families instead. And I also heard him saying about his niece he hasn’t seen in years. I thought in my head, you have no idea how it feels to have not seen one family member since he was born; you have no idea how it feels to have not seen your parents for 8 years straight. I was so mad. I was beyond sad.
Then lunch time came around. I decided I need a break. I took my lunch downstairs at the cafetaria around 1PM. I brought my bible (on purpose) and wanted to read it during lunch. I brought leftover but didn’t feel like eating it. I thought I’d cheer up myself by getting a nice lunch. So I did. After buying lunch, I decided I’d sit in the back corner of the cafetaria where no one would see me or so I thought. 5 minutes after I sat down my boss showed up out of nowhere next to my table!!!!!!!!!!! How??????????? He asked me, so what’s good here. Lazily I answered, I bought some asian foods; pretty good. I didn’t really feel like talking so I didn’t really carry on my conversation. He went on saying, well I guess I should try that. He left to go to the same place where I got my lunch from. I should have ran at that point but of course I didn’t. After my boss got his lunch he asked if he could join me at my table. Did I really have a choice? He started talking. I kept on eating my lunch. I really did not feel like talking at all today during lunch. I wasted the whole hour. I did not get to open my bible at all. And what made me really mad was when we were walking upstairs to our office, my boss said to me, oh yeah about your vacation, when do you need to know if you could go or not. I was like, well does it really matter? You and the VP already wrote me email yesterday pretty much saying I wouldn’t be able to go in April anyways. Then he added that they could probably do something. I thought in my head, don’t do this to me. Don’t give me false hopes. I am tired of it. I didn’t say anything. I couldn’t for some reason.
I came back to my desk and the rest of the afternoon I just sat there quietly. I overheard my group was talking about something and I just ignored them. I did not feel like talking to them at all. Not for now at least. I couldn’t care less. Not today.
I am still hurting. I cannot believe I am actually on this intersection now: family or work. I wish the choices were easier for me. I know God is working on something for me right now. I hope He hurries. I can’t wait any longer. I thought he would give me an occupation I love. That’s what I thought. I am not there yet. And God knows this. I know He wouldn’t dissapoint me. God never lies. He keeps his promise. All the time. I’ll never stop asking and praying. Never. I will ask and pray until God hears and answers them.
Today was good and not so good.
It was good because I had the time to go to church to attend the Novena Mass. Though I am not a Catholic yet, I do believe in the Catholic teachings and church. I have accepted Jesus Christ in my heart. Today I prayed to Immaculate Virgin Mary. I asked her the same thing I have been asking her for months. I have faith that Virgin Mary will hear and answer my prayers. She did before so there is no doubt she will do it again for me. The mass was very nice. I always love going to Monday’s Novena mass. It’s quiet and peaceful in there. And I always have the time to pray for Virgin Mary.
After I came back from church, I got the news from my boss that they wouldn’t allow me to take vacation in April—another girl in my department is pregnant and she is due in April. My boss asked the vice president and pretty much the vice president was hinting that if someone wasn’t there when the company needed him/her, then that would mean that person shouldn’t be there.
Ok so here I am in the middle of this stupid thing. My families wouldn’t understand the situation here with my company and my company wouldn’t care about the last wedding in my family and the fact that I haven’t visited my families since the year 2000. Why would they care? All they care is that we work to death.
Tonight I have to call my mom and try to explain this whole thing. She’s going to be upset and I wouldn’t know what to do—yeah I know why don’t I just quit my job??? how’s that. I can stay with my family all year long if I want to. *SIGH*
I am so frustrated right now. I cried in the bathroom of my office today. I was just too frustrated. I don’t know how to get these 2 sides to understand my position. My family is going to hate me and my office is going to think I am a bad employee. Great.
I hope that my sister would change her wedding date–I doubt she’d do that. I don’t want to be blamed for anything bad that might happen later on.
I hate to be in this situation. I will pray again tonight to Virgin Mary. She’ll help me.
Well tonight was interesting.
My husband and I went to a religion class at our church. It was good. I enjoyed it. My husband did not really want to go at first but then he went with me. There were free foods before the class began. It was like getting free dinner so that’s a plus. I plan on coming to the next class again next week.
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I called my mom and dad. They’re so excited that I am going to go home visit. We talked for about 20 minutes. We exchanged news and stories. It was nice. I am going to call my mom again next week.
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I started thinking of what I should get for my husband’s families and my bestfriend for Christmas. I am thinking I should get them some fruits this year. Like a basket of fruits from Harry and David or something like that. It’s healthy and they will eat them. It’s not going to get wasted–I hope not. I hate getting cheap Christmas gifts that get unused. What’s the point??? I’d rather not get anything really. Or maybe I am picky. Maybe. Anyways. I don’t expect anyone to give me anything this Christmas. My own Christmas list is quite long and I will get some of them for myself. Just need to remind myself not to go overboard. Christmas shopping is dangerous. I will need to think about what I need to get for my families as gifts when I go home. I might send them first to my sister’s house that way I don’t have to haul them accross the globe.
Ah almost 11 PM. Time to go to bed. Tomorrow is Thursday already!!! I have a facial appointment tomorrow at 4 so I will try to get out of my office earlier than 4. Yay. The weekend is almost here. So exciting.
It’s Friday.
We have no plans for tonight. Just chilling out at home. My husband is running right now. I just had dinner–left over from last night. I wanted to go have some dim sum but I changed my mind. I just wanted something quick and I happen to have some left over so I just heated it up and ate it. Maybe tomorrow morning we’d have light breakfast somewhere.
I opened a new bank account today with local credit union. I opened a joint checking and saving account. I will have my direct deposit with this bank. Two people at work recommended it to me. My husband and I opened a saving account with another credit union a long time ago but we closed it. So far, my husband is planning on closing his Compass bank account and he will switch to our new credit union bank. We do not like Compass bank!!! They suck.
Tomorrow, saturday, my husband’s college football team is playing in town. I think he might like to go. I have some cash so I will see if we could scavenge 2 cheap tickets. If not, he’ll probably watch it from home. Or a sport bar. Either way does not matter.
I need to do some home improvement shopping in the morning. I’ll go early to beat the crowds.
On Sunday, after church, my husband and I are going to take a River cruise!! I am so excited. It’ll be nice and quiet. Just me and my husband. We’ll go on the cruise and have a nice lunch together. I am looking forward to it.
Cruise $0 (we bought the tickets long time ago on silent auction; we got it for real cheap)
Gas $20
Foods $30 – 40 (with tips)
Total: $50 – 60
Now talking about money, we have $3375 saved in my Emigrant Direct saving. I have $195 in my new saving account with the local credit union. My intention is to increase the saving with local bank to $6000 and eventually increase my Emigrant Direct saving up to $6000 as well ($12,000 = about 4 months of living expenses). I like Emigrant Direct since it is giving me 3% interest as of today. But since it is an online account, I do have little problem in accessing it in time of emergency. I don’t think the credit union gives any good interest rates at all but at least it is convinience when I need it (they have various ATM locations and many branches in town).
March 2009, I should be receiving between $10,000 – $13,000 in bonus (after tax) from work. If my mom sends us some money to fix up the house, then we could save all my bonus!!! I am hoping that I will get at least $200/month raise for year 2009 (after 2% increase in my retirement account).
Ok. My husband is here now. I will spend some time with him.
I am glad today is almost over. I have been very emotional today.
I had food poisoning last night. I ate some leftover Chinese food and 3 hours later when I was about to go to sleep I started feeling weird in my stomach. I threw up so much. Then my skins itched so bad. The whole ordeal took about 30 minutes. Then I felt so much better afterward. I went right back to sleep.
This morning I asked my boss if I could take a 3-weeks vacation in March next year to visit my family whom I haven’t seen in 9 years (next year) and to attend my sister’s wedding. At first he asked if I could shorten it but then he changed his mind and he let me take the whole 3 weeks off next year.
During lunch, I went to church to attend the Novena mass. I prayed and begged God to grant my top wish. I promise myself I will keep on asking until God grants my wish. I prayed to Virgin Mary as well. I begged and begged and begged…. I know they listen to my prayers and they will answer them.
After lunch, I had to do a company survey done throught a psychologist. The survey was just asking each employee of how things are in my company at this point. Last time we had this kind of survey, some important people from the upper management got fired. Two of them. I am not sure if there’ll be another round like this coming up. Anyways. I am not a fan of this type of survey. Did I lie? Not 100% but yet I did lie a bit. I am not about to get my butt fired right now when the economy is swinging to the left and right. I hated the survey.
Worst part of the day was when I walked to the paking garage at the end of the workday today. A man jumped off the parking garage building (where I park my car everyday for work). He commited suicide. I saw him. I saw how it happened. He fell face down. On the hard asphalt. He was clutching on a teddy bear and a picture of his family. He had a backpack on. It broke my heart. He was bleeding and bleeding and bleeding. I regret seeing the accident. Now I cannot shake the images I saw. Everything. It hurts me like he was someone I know. I think he’s gone. I saw the police, the firefighters, and the white sheet… I don’t know why that person commited suicide. The world must have been too hard for him to understand. Did he lose a job? Did he leave his children behind? He looked young. Why did he commit suicide? I hope God forgive him. I hope God will take and comfort that person in His arms. God forgives everyone.
My body is tired my mind is tired. All I want is a break from work. And after what I saw today–death in front of my very own eyes, I think I seriously need a break. I cannot shake the images I saw today. I am feeling horrible right now. How am I going to get a good night sleep tonight?
I cannot wait for this week to be over……………….
It has been a very long day today.
I woke up at 7AM. Last night I found out Compass bank charged me with 6 overdraft fees. What???!!!??? Anyways, long story short, this morning I made myself went to their branches to get those fees removed–I also called their 1-800 number. One branch was nice to me; the other was nasty about it. Summary: they were going to remove, I think, 5 out of those 6 fees. They won’t come in until Monday night so we’ll about that. If they won’t remove them I am closing my damn account. I hate Compass bank.
I was ready to go by 8AM this morning. I decided to go online and my nephew was online so I talked to him a bit. I asked him to see if my mom was home. He called and he said that my mom was on the way home from the doctor. I asked him to tell my mom to call me. So he did. My mom called about 10-15 mins after that. I spoke to her on the phone and asked about my sister’s wedding date, which I found out is going to be March 15, 2009 (Saturday). I plan to go home. My mom said she is going to pay for everything–I mean, everything!!! I don’t have to pay a thing for it. So ok, I guess I will be going. My mom said she is going to invite 1000 people for the wedding and to spend $10,000 – 15,000. Damn. This is for a one-night party???????????? Since when my mom became a millionaire??????????????
Then I asked her if I could borrow some money–$20,000 to fix up my house. She said she and my dad will think about it. Arrrghhhh. I need the money!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going to pray so much that my parents will send me the money. If not, I am screwed bad. Real bad.
My husband’s family is getting on my nerves. His grandma called today and asked my husband to take her to go shopping for grocery for my husband’s aunt who is recovering from a surgery. She made it sound like it was a life and death situation I kid you not. We were busy with Dog Days in the park almost allday today. So I asked my husband, does this have to be today? And so he called his grandma and she said that my husband’s aunt didn’t have any foods to eat. Ok…………………………… how………… in the world a family does not have a thing to eat????? Ok, if she were living in the ghetto and poor I would understand. This is NOT. So long story short, we went all the way (45 mins drive) to my husband’s grandma’s and aunt’s house to help them to go to the grocery. I asked if they they had a grocery list. There was a list but I did not see any FOODS listed on it. I saw Oreos, milk, cereal, toilet paper……….. as I went down the list I could not find a REAL food listed on there. Not one. I was pissed. They made this sound like a 911-type emergency. NO Freaking foods on the list. I thought there were starving and were about to die because of NO FOODS in the house. Someone needed to have some oreos. Yeah, lack of eating oreos is going to kill someone apparently. I swear, my husband’s families are useless sometimes. I am never living close to them. EVER.
I feel so glad my families are not here. I feel so glad that I am here by myself. I do not have to depend on others, no one is going to ask for my help. I am free to do whatever I want. And when I need money, I can just call my mom and she’ll send me money. Ok, what is better than that?????????????
I don’t know. Maybe I am not in a good mood today. Uggghhh. Everyone seems to be an idiot to me today.
