One Lucky Girl

it is confirmed!!

It is confirmed!!! I am pregnant :)

I had the appointment with the doctor today. I thought my husband was not going with me but to my surprise, he called right before I left my office building. And he went to the doctor’s office with me to hear the confirmation.

The nurse said that I am 4 weeks pregnant. It is still young and early :) My baby is still the size of a pea. How cute. So far I only told 2 good friends at work whom I know will not tell a single soul in my office. I kept their pregnancy secret–didn’t tell anyone.

They estimated my due date to be January 13, 2010. But of course it could be sooner or later. Oh I can’t wait to be so pregnant this Christmastime :)

Well. I am going to have another doctor’s visit in 3 weeks. The next appointment is going to be May 21, 2009 (Thursday) at 2.45PM. Sooooo excited. This is the time when we are going to have the first sonogram :)

I can’t wait to see. I am sure my husband is excited too. He is very happy with the pregnancy news. We have been waiting for months. It amazes me how I still don’t feel like I am prepared at all with this. We tried so hard to save our money and to fix up our house and everything. But things are still out of order. And now I have a plan not to come back to work after the baby is born. I don’t know until how long but I really need to figure something out. I would like to find a work that I can do from home. As for now, we’ll continue to save as much money as possible.

My husband and I don’t know how to break the news to our families yet. Maybe we should wait until we have our next appointment to tell everyone. I can’t wait but at the same time, I think we should wait a bit. I say until I am 2 months pregnant. And then I need to tell my boss about my pregnancy. Like it or not, he’s going to have to accept the news. I am going to break the news to everyone else the same time I break it to my boss. I know a lot of people will be excited for me. A lot of the ladies (and men!) at work have been so anxious waiting for me to get pregnant.

Tonight, I feel happy. I hope God will bless me, my husband, and my pea-size baby with health, happiness, and love from friends and family.

Please keep us in your prayers always :)


today….

This morning was a bad morning. It was just awful at work. I was so miserable. So anyways. I found out if I wanted to switch to another department, they would have to pay me $37k + 15% bonus. I am currently making $65k+20% bonus. I think the best thing for me is to stick it out until the baby is born and I can quit.

In the meantime, I am starting I can gather up any ideas/etc/etc of what I truly want to do for living soon as I quit my job next April. I am looking to quit my job in April 2010.

My first plan is to start my fabric shop business from home. Apparently I can’t afford to rent a space yet–hopefully someday when my business grows. So I am thinking, why not do it from home and I can  just sell them online. I can easily advertise it locally to attract local crafters.

You know. I am so glad I have friends at work who support me wholeheartly. I talked to my 2 good friends today and they made me all better by the afternoon.

Also, I made an appointment to see a doctor tomorrow to confirm my pregnancy. Yay. I am so excited. Too bad my husband wouldn’t be able to be there. But it’s ok. This visit is going to be short. I just want to bring home the good news to my husband and my good friends :)

I need to read the bible tonight before I go to bed. I need some comfort and I usually find it in God’s words.


everyone but me?

I had lunch with a friend of mine today and we were talking and all of the sudden she said, well you know I am expecting. My first reaction was, wow great. I was happy for her really. Then I started thinking in my head what I am going to make/sew for her baby.

Then when I came back to my work desk, I started thinking in my head… everyone is pregnant but me.

I emailed my friend and told her that I’ll be hosting her baby shower. So this year, so far, I will be hosting 2 baby showers. I am quite excited for both friends to be honest. They are good friends of mine and I will be delighted to host the baby showers.

As for me, I guess I’ll keep on waiting for the stork to come visit us.


believe me when I say this…

Dec 02
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I had my work review today. I just started my new position almost 4 months ago so my boss couldn’t really review my work. I asked if he had any problems with me, he said no; I said ok. I asked what he liked about me (work wise) and he said my willingness to work with others even when not asked and my attitude; I said fair enough. I signed the paperwork and I went back to my desk. Before I left, my boss said to me, he never reviewed someone that fast and he said that usually he would have to talk long and short with whoever he was reviewing. I said to him, I like to keep it simple and if he had any problems with me, I asked him to talk to me directly.

Today was so bland at work. I had the time to go to church to attend the Novena mass but to my dissapointment, there was no Novena mass today???? They only had the regular daily mass. I stayed anyway. And at the end of mass, I prayed the Novena to the Blessed Virgin Mary. I prayed so much. I prayed so hard. I meant every word I said at church today. I prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed. I begged and begged and begged for a miracle to come to my life. I felt so much better for that whole hour I was at church. How I wish every minute of my life I could feel like that.

My husband is working at his part-time job tonight. I miss him so much. I had dinner by myself. And then I baked brownies. I watched an old movie by myself. I felt so lonely tonight. Sigh.

What is it that I want in life? What do I want? I don’t want a fancy life. I want a simple life. I want to do something I love or I enjoy then at the end of the day I can go home to my family–happy and content. I want to take care of my husband and my kids–someday. I want to have time for my husband. I want be happy. I want a simple life. I want to make money enough to pay the bills and have a little fun. I don’t need million dollars in the bank. Money won’t make me happy. I want the happy life. I want it so bad. I don’t want to go to work worrying about my happiness. I hate my job. I hate it so much. I want to quit but I cannot afford it and everyday I am dreading it and it makes my head hurts and my heart beats so fast just thinking about it. I hate it so much and God knows that. I tell God every night. I ask and pray for strength and each day I pass it I feel relieved because for that one day God has given me strength to face it. I am thankful for that. I heard at mass once long time ago, as long as I have God by my side, there is nothing I cannot do.

A good friend of mine from work was being let go a week ago. Actually the company bought him out. They gave him a severance package. He has few more years until retirement so I am not sure if the company gave him his retirement or not. He had been with the company for 10 years. I wish they would bought me out. Just give me a year or two worth of my salary and I’d be a happy camper. I’d pay off everything and the house and I’d work part time somewhere I like for the rest of my life. I think that would make me happy.

Life is a mistery isn’t it? You never know what tomorrow will bring you. But always hope for the best. I know I complain a lot about my work but trust me, I am so thankful for everything else in my life. I have a wonderful husband, I have wonderful pets, I have a house, I have good friends and families. I have my health. I have my mind. I have some savings in the bank. I am able to donate to those who are less fortunate. I am able to think. I am able to walk. I have a car. I can feel. I have my legs. I have everything I need in this world. My life is beautiful regardless my work condition. I love everything else in my life except my job. But you know what? I won’t let it make me feel down–hard to believe right???  Sure I feel down sometimes thinking about my job but then I think about something else that makes me happy. Like Jesus, or Virgin Mary, or the church, or God’s words, or my husband, my families, my friends, all the happy moments I had experienced in my life, my dreams…. then I don’t feel so bad anymore. I am thankful that I have my job to provide me with money so I can pay the bills and pay for foods for us and the pets. The money I earn from work has enabled me to buy foods for others who are less fortunate; I have been able to send money to charities. All is that because of the job I hate so much.

Lord have mercy on me. I hope Lord Jesus would forgive me for ranting about my job. He loves me I know and he would not let me suffer. I know He will help me to get through this. I will keep on asking the Lord to please find me a way so  I can financially afford to quit my job. I hope the good Lord would find me something else to do. I don’t care about the money. I just need to be doing something I enjoy the most.

Recently, I thought about doing some missionary works in other countries. My husband thought I was kidding when I told him that. He asked me, what are we going to do with the dogs? Mind you, we have 6 dogs in the house (2 bigs and 4 small). I said to him, God will find us a way to take care of that. I seriously want to do missionary works. I want to tell others about God’s love. I want to spread that joy. Attending mass makes me happy. It takes away all my worries and sadness. I feel loved when I pray to God. I want to share that happiness. Not long ago, I was not religious at all. Few months ago, I could careless about God and now look at me. I attend mass regularly–sometimes 3 – 4 times a week. I attend religious classes. I read the Bible. I pray to the saints and Jesus and Virgin Mary. I am a true believer. God and the Blessed Virgin Mary have helped me SO much in my life for the last few months it is enough to convince me that God loves me. He will stand right beside me; holding my hands. Nothing I cannot face tomorrow.

May God pour His eternal blessings in your life always. Remember, when sadness and worriness creeps in your heart, pray and you will feel better.


Important Reminder!!

Two things.

1. Don’t forget to VOTE tomorrow!!! I am not a citizen so I can’t vote but if you have the right to vote; use it. Choose your leader wisely. I am not endorsing either of the candidates. McCain or Obama are good candidates. Hard to pick one.

 

2. Remember to enter for the Sex and the City Movie soundtrack CD giveaway. It will be closed on Nov 15. If you already own one, perhaps you could win this one to give to a friend as Christmas stocking stuffer. The CD is fabulous!! I own a copy and I love it. If you are a big fan of Sex and the City the movie (like I do!!!), you gotta own this CD.

 

Also, I just got back from 2 NKOTB’s concerts–Atlanta and Tampa. They were AWESOME!!!!! I actually got to meet them in Atlanta. I gave them big hugs. I hugged most of them (except Danny, I think) twice!!!!!!!! I felt like 15 all over again. It was a bittersweet moment for me. I wished my sisters were there with me.

NKOTB rocks!!!!!!!!

I spent tons of money. I would say near $2000 in total. I will have to tell stories from the concerts in my next blog.


savannah day 2 and 3

We finished day 2 in Savannah with great success. We started the day with a sweet visit to Back in the Day Bakery (www.backinthedaybakery.com). Tell me what a better way to start your day than having a cupcake as breakfast? I had a Vanilla cupcake with pink icing (it’s basically vanilla on vanilla). My husband got the blue one. We sat on our little table next to the window. I loved every moment I spent in that place. I savored every bite of that cute little cupcake. I even had the courage to order 3 more!!!!!!! to-go of course. I had the chocolate cupcake with chocolate icing, coconut-lemon cupcake, and another traditional vanilla on vanilla cupcake. I left that place happy!!!

We then head off to downtown. The intention was to have small lunch at Paula Deen’s restaurant The Lady and Sons (www.ladyandsons.com) . I saw the menu online the night before and I already knew what I wanted–crabcake. That was it. I love crabcakes so every time I go to a restaurant that serves crabcakes, I always try one. Anyways. After several rounds trying to find a parking spot, we finally parked somewhere and walked to the restaurant. We saw a line–wasn’t that long. But it never moved. So I said to my husband, let me go to the gift shop (there is a gift shop next to Paula Deen’s restaurant–it’s owned by Paula). I was at the store for about 5 mins when my husband came up to me and said, we can’t lunch at the restaurant. I asked why. He said because we didn’t have a reservation. Ah what a bummer. We left the place.

I decided to visit a kitchen store called Kitchen on the Square. It is located not too far from Paula’s restaurant. I bought all sorts of cookie cutters, pie weigh, and some scoopers. I really took my time at the store. I just loved it.

Well, by the time I finished shopping, we felt kinda hungry. So we decided to eat at a small restaurant called Zunzi’s (http://www.zunzis.com/). We’ve always gone there everytime we visit Savannah. They have vegetarian-friendly menus. I orderd my favorite Portabello Mushroom’s sub (served on a baguette). Oh it is sooooo yummmyyy!!!! And it is HUGE!!!! My husband had the Beef Curry served on white rice. We both ordered African sweet tea (one of the owners is from South Africa). It was the perfect lunch. Affordable and very very good for your tummy.

After that great lunch, we decided to do some window shopping. We walked around downtown Savannah (Broughton street). I bought an antique gilded  mirror ($60); bought two lottery tickets ($2); bought one supersize + super cute ring ($32); and bought 2 vintage wire caddies–different sizes and style ($21 and $10). I saw some cute clothes but they were too expensive so I didn’t buy them.

We also went window shopping on Whitaker street. We visited so many great furniture shops on that street. I found a cute little boutique called Custard (www.custard.com) that sells chic clothes mostly for under $100. The owner showed me a rack that filled with 40% off clothes. I found several pieces I loved and decided to buy 3 of them ($182).

It was already past 5 when we finished shopping. We deciced to go back to our hotel to walk our dogs. We spent few hours with the dogs before we headed back to downtown (River street) area to grab dinner. That evening we went to have dinner at Tubby’s Tank House (www.tubbystankhouse.com) on River street. The lines was long so we had to wait about 45 minutes. We walked along the River street to kill time. I bought some sweet goodies at The Peanut Shop (www.thepeanutshop). We visited many other shops as well. There were so many local artists showing off their talents that night and we truly enjoyed that. We had a good time that evening!!!

We left Savannah the day after in the morning. Before we left, we grabbed some breakfast. I ordered a to-go breakfast from the Firefly cafe (www.fireflycafega.com) –spinach and crab omelette and strawberry+banana smoothie. Breakfast was good but a bit pricey. My husband had some Gyro at a Greek restaurant on River Street. It was good–and affordable– he said.

While we were driving, we passed a Dog park!!! We decided to stop by. The dog park (www.savannahdogpark.com) is not a public dog park so you would actually have to have a membership but since we were visiting, they let us stay. The dogs loved it. They were running around–happy. We stayed there about an hour and a half. We continued our trip to the Forsyth park. We put the dogs on their leash and we walked around the park with them. Fun!!!!!!!! They enjoyed meeting new people. They sniffed and wagged their tails to everyone they met.

When we left Savannah, we felt so tired but very happy indeed. Our dogs were too tired to do anything else but sleep in the car. What a fun weekend we had. I enjoyed this trip as much as my other trips to this city. Savannah will always be in my heart.

I cannot wait to go back there again in the fall….


finding true happiness

Jul 31
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what makes you happy?

My husband, my families, my pets, and my bestfriends are the ones who make me happy. They keep me going everyday. I am very thankful to have them in my life.

My husband is my soul mate. I love him dearly. My families are my roots. They keep me grounded. My pets give me everlasting love. They always give and never expect anything back. My bestfriends are so understanding. My one bestfriend right now, Erica is so sweet. She listens to whatever problems I have. She never judges me. She never says anything bad to me. I am so grateful to know her and her family–who is soooo nice to me.

Today, I just want to thank God for everything I have in my life. I am so lucky. Very lucky. I have just about everything I need in life–love and good companies. I hope that I will always have them until the day I die.


random thoughts…

Last night, my husband and I were invited to my bestfriend’s family’s house for dinner and to play Wii again. It was so much fun. The foods were good and we enjoyed playing Wii so much. I brought dessert to the dinner gathering. I have told them next time, I will bring dinner for everyone.

Tonight I have to work night, as well as Saturday and Sunday nights. Next week from Wednesday – Friday, my husband is going to be in St.Petersburg. I asked for time off from work but they denied my vacation request. I have to work Thursday – Sunday (days) next week. Sucks.

After next week,  I will be off for a week. I am going to take my little sister and my bestfriend to Walt Disney World. I think I’ll ask if my husband would like to go.

I am tired. I am going to go to sleep again for an hour and wake up at 4.15 to get ready for work. Blah.


i love summertime

Summer is one of my favorite seasons of the year–Chrismas is my most favorite one but I will save this for later.

Summer means no school for kids, no worries, easy days, long bright sunny days, hot days, watermelons, biking in the afternoon, friends gathering, sundress, straw hat, summer readings, new hobbies, the beach, flip flop, disney world visit, car cruising, lazying around the house doing nothing, lemonade, ice creams, weekends at the farmer’s market, barbecue, forth of july, celebration, happiness, cakes……

I love summertime. Summer always gives me a smile on my face. There is no reason to frown during summer time. Everything is too gorgeous and too bright and sunny to waste!!!!!!

No more hardfeelings. Let them go. Put on a smile. Enjoy summertime.