I am so mad.
I drove home only to find out my favorite house on my block was SOLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was supposed to be my future house!!!!! I wanted that house so bad. I prayed to God all the time. Sigh. I am so bummed.
I hate it I hate it I hate it. Ok let me be specific. I hate working for other people. I want to have my own business. I want to own a small business. I want to win the lottery so I can volunteer!!!!!!!!! that’s all I am going to do. Volunteer. Help people. Help animals. For the rest of my life. I want to help. I want to learn more about God. I want to volunteer for my church. I want to travel with my husband and our families.
I do not like to work for other people.
Please God let me win the lottery!!!!!!!
My husband and I (and the dogs) are visiting Savannah again this weekend from Friday – Sunday. We arrived today around 3PM. We’re lucky we don’t live too far from Savannah. This is our 4th visit to Savannah in almost a year and a half. I am so in love with Savannah. If I won the lottery this weekend, I am going to quit my job on Monday; buy a house in Savannah and move here!!!!!
Savannah is a charming little city. It is packed with histories and old homes–just the way my husband and I like from a city. Although I am only 30 and my husband 28, we both have true love for old homes–Victorian to be exact.
Walking through the streets of Savannah, I always feel some kind of dejavu-like-moments. Like I belong here…my past was here…
I just love it here.
Tonight we went walking down the Riverfront area. We had dinner at Huey’s. I had my favorite Shrimp and Grits while my husband ordered Crawfish Ettoufee. Sure, they are not originally from Savannah (more like Louisiana origin) but they’re still representing the Southern foods strereotype. And of course, we always drink Sweet Tea with our meals when dining out.
Tomorrow morning, we are going to visit my favorite bakery, Back in The Day Bakery (http://www.backinthedaybakery.com/) on Bull Street, to get some yummy cupcakes. The owner has been featured on Paula Deen’s show. Paula Deen is also from Savannah. We plan to grab some lunch tomorrow at Paula Deen’s restaurant, The Lady and Sons (http://www.ladyandsons.com/). Although we have been to Savannah several times, we haven’t had the chance to eat at the restaurant. People say it’s not so good but I love Paula Deen so I’d like to try her restaurant and be the judge myself!! And not far from Paula’s restaurant, there is a kitchen shop I love to visit (and I visit this place everytime I go to Savannah!!), Kitchens on The Square (http://www.kitchensonthesquare.com/). If you love to cook, this place is a must to visit!! Last time I went there, I bought a bunch of cookie cutters in different shapes and sizes!! Very cute.
Anyways. That’s my report from Savannah for now. I will be posting some pics and more stories tomorrow. I love Savannah!!!!
I had planned tonight’s dinner for days. I love to cook and I used to cook every single night. Now, due to my crazy work schedule, I can no longer do this. When I do have the time, I like to plan my dinners. Cooking for loved ones-family, friends, good neighbors, is my passion. I enjoy it. It makes me happy when others enjoy my foods. Anyways.
On the menu tonight was Bang Bang Shrimp served on a bed of lettuce, Chicken Kiev for my husband, some Korean rice, Watermelon for dessert (and we actually had little bit of ice creams). I was going to cut up some mangos but they weren’t ripe enough. Should be ready for tomorrow.
I used one pound of Shrimps to make the Bang Bang Shrimp. I also made the Chicken Kiev from one pound of chicken breasts. The Bang Bang Shrimp was so good. My husband and I were so full after each eating a plate full of shrimps and lettuce. I couldn’t eat anything else.
We ate dinner while watching the Da Vinci Code. I know it’s old but I haven’t watched it yet until tonight.
Here is the recipe for the Bang Bang Shrimp. You really should try it. You can adjust the spiciness to suit your taste. I got the original recipe from www.grouprecipes.com however, I tweaked a little bit of it.
Bang Bang Shrimp
Ingredients
Cooking directions
I bought 2 lbs of shrimps and I only used 1 lbs tonight. I plan to make something else tomorrow. Maybe I can just make Pan Seared Shrimps to serve with hot white rice that I made tonight. I also have some bay scallops in the refrigerator. I can easily pan sear them too with the shrimps.
Tomorrow, I actually would like to make Cucumber and Tomato salad to serve as the opening of our dinner. It will be served cold and it’s one of my favorite summer salads. So easy to make. Pretty much you just cut up the cucumber and tomatoes and mix them together with italian dressing; some salt and pepper. Keep in the refrigerator for an hour or so and they are ready to be served. Super easy!!! Yet it never fails me. I have made this salad for various potlucks and everyone loved it. I love it best served with Crabcakes. Yummmmmmm.
For dessert, I have been craving for some homemade Pound cake and I found this recipe on www.foodtv.com that has great reviews from everyone. The recipe is from Paula Deen. I have all the ingridients and I am going to make 2 batches of this tomorrow. I’ll freeze some and eat one loaf for this week. I am also in the mood for some cobblers. There are so many fresh fruits right now. I will bake berry cobbler or pie for my husband this weekend as a welcome-home celebration. I’ve got some steak I can grill for him as well once he gets home from his trip. I am going to miss him so much!!!!
Yesterday before I went to work, my husband took me out to an early dinner and ice cream dessert followed. It was nice of him. We had some fish dinner and he took me to my favorite ice cream shop in town (it’s a mom and pop ice cream parlor). I really enjoyed it. I didn’t see my husband much last week. And I won’t be able to see him for 3 days and 2 nights this week since he has to go to St.Petersburg from Wednesday through Friday for work-related event he has to attend. I am going to miss him so much. But next week I have a whole week off and I will see him every single day!!!!!!! Yay. Tonight I am going to cook him something special. Tomorrow night too. I’ve got it all planned already.
I know it sounds silly but sometimes, little things like that make me happy. Being with my husband. Spending time with my dogs. Just being at home with them makes me happy. It makes my soul leaps in joy and pure happiness.
I was talking to my coworkers at work last night about some of our coworkers who have been looking very unhappy working at our office. Since the new boss arrived, things changed so much in so little time. It’s not a good kind of change. It’s bad. We’re going downhill. A lot of people feel so pressured and pressed. It’s just not a happy place to work anymore. It does not do good to our sanity at all. I am feeling the pressures. I am new in my current position (been doing it for 7 months only). I always fake a smile when I am at work. And trust me, doing that for 12 hours a day is NOT easy. It’s stupid. Sometimes I wonder why I do this to myself. I am hurting nobody but myself. Deep inside, I feel miserable at work. I want to quit. I want to run away from that place. I hate my work. I used to like it. The new boss does not want to listen to anybody’s suggestions. He does not care. He will throw you under the bus if that makes him look better in front of his boss. I don’t know what I am going to do to be honest. I don’t feel like staying there anymore.
Sometimes I feel so lucky that my husband has a full time job. Most of the people at my department are males and they are the breadwinner of their families. So it can be hard for most of them to quit their job. If I really want to, I can quit my job and if I find a part time job somewhere, we’d still make it. But to most of these people at my work, there is no option like that. They cannot quit. If they quit, their family won’t have anything to eat. It sucks. I pray and I beg to God so that the situation will get better in our office/department. I don’t know. God can work some kind of miracle. I know He can. He will help all of us in need.
And if things get really really really bad, I can always call my mom and borrow money from her. She is always there for me. I love my mom.
It is almost 6.30AM Monday morning. My husband will be up in a little bit. I plan to go to church today at 12 to attend Novena Mass. I have lots to pray to God. I know God hears our prayers and he listens and he answers each and every prayer we have.
Uggghh. My job drives me crazy. The other day someone asked me why I applied for another position. I wanted to tell him that I hate this job SO much I’d take any other jobs in a heartbeat but instead I chose a more diplomatic answer. You never know who you can trust at work. I try not to spill any beans I have. I apply for whatever job I want. None of their business. I want to get another job that offers a regular schedule (and a nicer boss). I want to be able to see my husband every single evening and weekend. I want to hug him when I am sleeping at night. I want to spend weekends with him. I want to go out with friends on weekend or any Monday nights or whatever. I want my family time back. My current job is so stupid. I feel stupid for doing it. I don’t know why. I am not happy and it won’t make anyone else happy. I try to be happy and I think I put on a quite darn good show at work concealing my real feeling of my job. I fucking hate my job. I hate it so much I’d do anything in the world to win the lottery so I don’t have to go back to my office ever again.
I want that balance between work and family again. I want my sanity and health back. I don’t want to go to work feeling all presured and stressed out even before I begin the day.
*Sigh*
I need to go to bed.
I didn’t win the lottery last night. Not yet. God hasn’t allow me to own the money. There is next Wednesday that I can try and then the following Saturday. The money pool is getting bigger.
I came back from work about an hour ago. I am so tired now. We watched 3 movies at work tonight. It helped to pass the long night. I hate working nights. I wish God had let me win the lotto tonight so I can quit my job and do volunteer works for the rest of my life.
Tonight is my last night working this week. I am so pooped out. Can’t wait. Today is Sunday and I won’t be able to go to church because I’d be sleeping/resting to prepare myself for work tonight. I plan to go to church on Monday (Miraculous Medal Novena mass). I need to say more prayers. I’d like another position at work. Or another job outside the company. Or to win the lotto jackpot.
I am so tired I need to sleep. I might write again later before I go to work.
I have been venting to my bestfriend, Erica, and today she sent me a nice email and she added a quote that says:
“Find a job that you like and you never have to work again”
I read that quote over and over and over again. I loved it. It gives me encouragement. Thank you Erica.
First of all, thank you for Taxpayer Joe for posting a message regarding my previous post. As recommended, I am posting my newly revised budget.
Monthly Take-home income (me; 30 y.o): $3300 ($63750/year–>this does not include one-time bonus 30% of my salary paid each March)
Monthly Take-home income (husband; 27 y.o): $1700 ($27000/year)
TOTAL GROSS INCOME: $90,750
| Mortgage | 1290 |
| Foods | 300 |
| Gas | 200 |
| Pets | 100 |
| Utilities | 175 |
| Car (two) | 625 |
| Insurance | 130 |
| Internet | 35 |
| Phone | 50 |
| Storage | 95 |
| Misc | 200 |
| CC/debts | 1000 |
| Saving | 800 |
| TOTAL | 5000 |
| Debt Husband | ||
| Capital One | $1,582.04 | 16.93% |
| MBNA | $3,851.63 | 21.99% |
| GMCard | $7,175.24 | 11.49% |
| Discover | $2,249.21 | 28.99% |
| Chase | $7,000.00 | 2.99% |
| Disney | $1,525.71 | 25% |
| TOTAL | $23,383.83 | |
| Debt Me | ||
| Chase | $4,100 | 29% |
| Debt 2 CARS | $27,000 | 6% |
| TOTAL | $54,483.83 |
MORTGAGE $145,000 (7% 30 years fixed).
Retirement saving $32,000
EF $6000 (earning 3%)
I am SO freaking out.
Please anyone give me advice on how to better manage my money. My husband and I would like to pay off the debts in 2-3 years (except mortgage). Is this possible? Should I pad my EF again? I’d like to get the EF to $12,000 by the end the year–I am not sure how long I want to stay at my company. Is this a good move? Thanks for the advice.
I emailed home to tell the story of my car.
Mom called the next morning to tell me she is transfering $15,000 into my account. She asked me to get another car that is more reliable and NOT Ford.
I am thinking of getting an Audi or a BMW. I’d like a Mercedes but they cost more I think. My husband does not care about cars so he doesn’t care what I am getting. Although he is pushing me toward a Honda or Toyota. Why does everyone think a Honda or a Toyota is cheaper than a BMW? Have you checked car prices lately? a 2006 Honda Accord costs exactly, if not more, than a 2006 BMW. Yet everyone thinks a BMW costs more than a Honda.
When I told the story about my car to everyone at work, they said to me: oh get a Honda Civic or Accord. I said yeah that’s a good choice. I drove a Honda Accord when I was in college. It was a nice car. Very, very reliable. Don’t think I ever had a serious problem with it. Well, of course my parents bought the car brand new so that would make a huge difference I guess than buying a used one.
My dad owned a brand new 3 series BMW a while back. He loved it. I tried to convince him to give me the car he said no. He bought me an Accord instead. My family loves Honda. They can afford any car they want but they always opt to buying a Honda. My mom said she just bought a CRV not long ago. I am not too crazy about Honda CRV. It’s nice but I don’t want one right now.
My heart is set on a European-made car right now. My husband is probably going to think I am crazy. And everyone else too.
Husband and I went to Carmax yesterday early evening to see cars. And I kept on telling him I want a BMW and he thought I was kidding. Yes of course, this was before my mom called me this morning. And now I don’t think he thinks I am joking anymore when I said I wanted a BMW.
Life is short. Aahhh might as well splurge a little.
My mom is the absolute best. I love her SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much. She is the most generous person I’ve ever known in my whole life. I have never met anyone as generous as my mom. Everytime I asked her help with money, she’d send it right away. She is so wealthy and I AM NOT!!!!!!!!! Drives me crazy sometimes. But it does give me a peace of mind sometimes, I admit it. I know that if anything goes wrong, there is my mom that I can count on. This makes me sound so not independent doesn’t it? I love my mom.
My mom does not know about this blog but you know what mom, I want to tell the world that I love you so very, very much. You are the best thing God ever created in my life. We might live far away from one another but I hold you dear in my heart. I love you Mom.
The end of the life of my 1995 Ford Mustang.
I was driving today (30 mph) and my car started making noises. All of the sudden, I heard a “BOOM” sound coming from the front of the car followed by a cloud of smoke coming out of nowhere. And the car’s engine died and the car just rolled. I pulled over in an office parking lot.
I was mad.
I called my husband and told him the problem. He called a towing company. $85.
So now we only have one car. Damn. I am so mad now.
I need to get another car.
