I went to do a fashion show today. Call time was 9AM. The show wasn’t even until 1PM–after some luncheon or some sort. I’ve done this show many times before and usually they’d feed us. Not today. Someone must have put a sign in front of dressing room. Warning: Danger. DO NOT FEED THE MODELS. So from 9AM – 1PM, we all had nothing but bottles of water. I kept chugging the water just so I didn’t feel hungry. The girls were complaining that they were too hungry. Geez, if we knew we wouldn’t be fed, we’d bring some snacks.
Overall, the show was fun. I had a blast. The girls were amazing. I really wish I could do this for a living. I can definitely see myself doing this everyday.
When I got home, I fixed myself this HUGE plate of rice and garlic shrimp dish. I ate the whole thing like I haven’t eaten in 3 days.
Well, well, well….. another position is opening at work. It is the job that I was eyeing about 4 years ago. Damn. Why is it every position I want to apply is opening right now? I am just 3 months into my new position. $%&^#$&*&^**%!~$%.
I do not want to look like a quiter. Although I am so tempted to put in my resume for those jobs. Sometimes I thought to myself, what the heck I do what I want to do. But then I also care of what people think of my action at work. You know, professionalism. My company is a small company. It has about 100 people only I think. So everyone knows everybody. And quite frankly, everyone knows me!!! Ah. Don’t know if that is a good thing or bad thing. I like my company as a whole. Yes, ok I bitch about it sometimes (who doesn’t?) but overall it is not a bad place to work. I am thinking of my long term goal with the company. I do not want to look like a hopper.
As much as I complain about what I do for living right now…. I am slowly enjoying it. I still bitch about it every minute every day but I do it anyway. Especially when I have to get up at 4.30 in the morning. I mean, it’s got its ups and downs just like everything else. Like I said earlier, as I gain knowledge of what I do, I gain more confidence in my performance as well. I may not be the smartest traders in my company yet but I am on my way to be one. I want to be one of the best traders my company has. Just like I was their best scheduler. Everything takes time to learn. It took me some time to be an expert in what I did before I moved to my new position. I am a green pea again now. But soon I know I’ll kick those bitches asses. And after a year or two, I might shoot for another position. I don’t ever plan on becoming a manager. I don’t think I’d be able to handle the pressures. Like I said earlier, I want to live a simple live. At work and at home. I don’t want to be bothered with politics at work. Who cares. I just want to go to work, do my job, and get paid for it. Go home and forget about it.
To think about it. This is the first time I feel relaxed since I took the new job at work. I am thinking about the money that we’re going to save this year and all the good things that are coming our way. And I feel calm. I realized that I have more than what I need in life. I own a house that is big enough to shelther my husband, me, and our pets. We are making good money–at this point, more than enough to cover our monthly expenses and pay debts. In 2 years (or less), when we pay off our debts, we’d have so much more leftover money. The fact that we are starting our emergency fund makes me feel more secured about our finance as well. As soon as my bonus is deposited to my bank account, I am sending it to our EF accounts. I think, as soon as we pay off our CC debts, I want to ask my husband if we could pay off the mortgage sooner. I figured if I stay with my company for years, I could just save my bonuses while we use some of the extra money in our paychecks to pay off the mortgage. We have about 145K in our mortgage balance. Oh I am not going to worry so much about it right now. I just want to feel this moment of happiness right now. I don’t want to think about anything that is going to stress me out later.
Ok. In another news. I deposited $500 to the bank today. This is going to be the start or our EF account. I opened a 2nd joint account for me and my husband. We’ll be funding $2000 to this just-in-case account. You know, like just in case my dog goes to the ER. Or other emergencies. The other $10K would sit in our Emigrant Direct account online. Then that would be it for this year’s EF saving. We’d be sending the rest of the money to our CC debts. Son of bitches. I hate being in debts. Hopefully we’d get it all pay off in 2 years or less.
While I was at the bank, the customer service rep offered me a home equity loan product that they have. I was like, umm no it’s ok. We’re trying to do the opposite! pay it off as soon as possible!!!!
Another interesting news, I had to do fitting this afternoon at the super high-end boutique that hires me to do fashion show this Wednesday. Each year, this boutique hires me. The fashion show is always held at the same place: one of the chic-est museum in town. It’s always fun to do fashion show with this people. I love wearing those expensive clothes in front of rich people. I feel rich and fabulous for that time being. The clothes that I am going to wear are from Roberto Cavalli’s, Badgley Mischa’s, Oscar dela Renta’s and some new designers. They are very, very expensive. Lovely. Although some, I have to admit, are overrated.
