One Lucky Girl

more sad news…

Well, this is kinda sad. Another friend I know from church is about to lose his job in August :( I am going to pray for him tonight. He is a nice guy. I feel bad for him. I wish I had a company that is hiring. I will pray for him so that he can find another job soon.


Posted in faith, job

our baby’s heartbeats…

We went to see the doctor today for our appointment. I am 12 weeks pregnant now. I cannot believe it. We also heard the baby’s heartbeats today. It was so precious. I was so happy!!!! My husband was there too. I thought listening to the baby’s heartbeats was the coolest thing ever. They go really fast like Tinkerbell’s  (my chihuahua) heartbeats :)

I know this might sound stupid but I have become more and more convinced that I am carrying a live human baby. That I am about to become a mother in about 6 months………

Very happy.


Posted in baby, celebration

job comes and goes…

Today one of the girls who was on maternity leave announced her resignation. She decided to stay at home with the baby. I am jealous. I want to be like that. I want to stay with my baby when my baby is born. I just don’t know how we can afford it yet. I pray each day for God to help me find a way. I am really begging Him to show me a way.

Today also, my husband told me that one of his coworker’s husband got laid off from his work :(

Then another announced that he just received a paycut.

I feel thankful for having a job. I feel lucky that I have an income to support me. I know I should be thankful. I do hate my work sometimes. Not the work itself. Some of the people that I work with. I hate them. They are like gums that stuck on the bottom of your shoes. Annoying. And trust me, I am not exxagerating.


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hot hot hot

Wow. What a hot Sunday. Temperature in the 100s today. Crazy. Even crazier because I baked a Blueberry Pie and some turkey meatloaf. My house feels like an oven now. While in the kitchen I decided I should cook lunches and dinners for a week so I did. I make bunch of chicken recipes today to last us a week. I have to make some rice but that is easy. I might as well make some brownies too tonight. What the heck. Might as well right?

We went grocery to Walmart and Sams today. Bought some chicken and lots of fruits. They should last us at least a week. I still have some ground chicken I don’t know what to make with it. My mind is blank with ideas. Ah. Thai ground chicken with lettuce wrap!!  I should make them. They are extremely easy to make so I will make them for tonight. I happen to have some left over lettuces.

I was going to make some chicken potstickers but my wraps are in the freezer and I don’t feel like waiting on them thawing.

You know, I have been longing to make my own chicken egg rolls. I used to make them a lot. They are so good. I might make a bunch of them this weekend. Also my own chicken dumplings. Yum.

Today is father’s day. In my home country, we don’t celebrate father’s day today so I don’t have to call my dad to tell him happy father’s day. For my husband, I guess all those cookings are for him :P


Posted in dinner, family, food

:(

I just found out that one of my neighbors is also pregnant and she is due 7 days after my due date. This is the neighbor who bought my dream house. The big house that has very large yard. This is the neighbor who also happens to like animals as much as we do.

I remember the day I found out my dream house was sold. I was crushed. I thought I’d win the lotto before they could sell that house so I could buy it. No such thing. I did not win the lotto. Some couple bought the house. I remember the day I saw them for the very first time. I did not like them. They looked young. And that made me jealous. I really really wanted the house so bad.  I prayed every night and day for a miracle to happen. I trusted God would help me acquired the house somehow. But nothing happened. I was so so so so sad when they sold the house. I blamed myself for not having much money. For buying a house years earlier. For not saving enough money. I hated myself for that.

Then now I found out that neighbor is pregnant. I had envisioned my children to grow up in that house; playing in that big backyard with the dogs. Now all those dreams are gone.

I know I am just jealous. I am also mad at myself. Why can’t I just win the lottery?????????

Why????????/


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falling of the wagon a bit… :(

I feel like we have spent so much money today. My husband took me to Joann and I ended up spending almost $50 on sewing supplies. Granted they were 50 and 40% off but still, I kinda feel like spending $50 is a lot. Then we went to Ross. I bought maternity clothes to the tune of $56 (well, $5.99 was actually for a kitchen shears).  So, ok, I have spent about $50 on maternity clothes but I did get a bunch of them as each shirt cost me between $3.99 – $5.99 and I bought a short for $9.99.

For lunch, we went to Arby’s. We got a free sandwich coupon so we used that and I bought popcorn chicken. Total cost was about $6.50.  But now I am hungry again. We ate our leftover from Panda Express earlier this morning though (leftover form last night’s dinner). I saw there was a new chinese restaurant opening in our neighborhood and they sent us the menu. Now I want some chinese. I will see if I we have some money left over to buy some chinese. I don’t want to over spent my money. We are on a tight budget and we are doing good. Ok–maybe except the part where I spent $100 total on Ross and Joann. But I do need some maternity clothes and I do need some sewing supplies.

Everytime I think about the possibility of our saving to grow to $30,000 in march of 2010, I get really, really excited and I get so motivated. We do need the money. I hope so much the Lord with help me get through hell at work so that I could last for another year or two  or five…at my company. If, I could save $30,000/year… in 2 years I could save $60,000.. in 3..$90,000.. in 4 … $120,000………. Then we could pay off the house right when I turn 35….. and we won’t have to worry about mortgage…. If we only have 2 kids, we should be fine with our house. It is not the biggest or grandest house but it will do it for us. I hope the economy will get better so that I can look for another job perhaps.

I don’t think we are suffering much financially right now–knock on wood. I know I am trying to save as much and I am trying not to buy things. I haven’t bought stupid shoes or bags in a year. That alone I think is a major improvement from me. I bought maternity clothes because I need them. And trust me, I try to find the cheapest ones I could find.

I am very lucky my husband has been the frugal one in our family. He does not spend much money at all. He can eat whatever I make. He does not drink or smoke either so I am very lucky.


Posted in baby, budget

another day another dollar in the bank….

As of  today, we have managed to save a total of $3100 . Not much but it is a good start. Today alone, I was able to transfer $1000 from our paychecks to our saving account. I am happy and glad that we’re able to save some money. In another 2 weeks, we’ll be able to save another $750. So by July 2nd, our saving should grow to $3850.

My husband sold his cellphone on Ebay and he is getting $85 from it. He is going to save in to our saving account.

Looking back, I always wonder what we did wrong. Both my husband and I have been working for more than 6 years and we only have $3100 in saving??? Kind of embarassing. I know I was so stupid financially when I was younger. I bought whatever I wanted not thinking about tomorrow. Now everything has changed. I am about to have a baby in less than a year. I have to have money saved. Plus I never know how the economy is going….. Never know if my company will still be there tomorrow. Don’t know if I am still going to have my job next week. Or even tomorrow. In this economy, it is better to save than to spend I guess. Yeah sure it is easier said than done.

Right now, we are setting aside $1750 to our saving account each month. We bring home a net total of $5400. So $1750 is about 32 – 33% of our net monthly take home income. I save 10% in my retirement through my company and my company gives 3%. So in total I save 13% of my yearly salary for my retirement.

I really wish I had saved more since I was younger.

Today I looked at my total CC debts again. Scary. I had $4000 (0%) in chase. Then $2000 in providian. Then $3000 in my discover card. Ouch. So I have almost $10,000 in CC debts. My mom owes me $5000. So I hope so much she will pay me back so I can pay off my providian and my discover card. Then I will be able to pay off the rest of my CC debts easily. Honestly, I don’t even know if my mom will ever pay me back. As much as I love her I think sometimes she is sneaky. Sigh.

I am so confused. I wish I could find another job. I wish I was happier at my workplace. I wish everything was better at my work place. I wish things were better. I wish people were not as bitter at work. I hate working with people in  my department. They are never nice. I don’t know why.

I know this sounds like desperate but I really need to win the lottery. Sure yeah who does not need to win the lotto right????? if only. If only.

Ok time for me to go to bed.


Posted in budget

Saturday rambling….

Just got back from the farmer’s market. I got 8 huge mangoes, one pinneaple, about 3 lbs of lychee  and some salsa + crackers. Also went to another market in town and got myself 2 croissants. I was in the mood for some caesar salad so my husband took me to panera to get a bowl of caesar salad that we shared.

Right now, my husband is sanding the floors in the hallway. He should be able to finish it today. And I am expecting to have gleaming wood floors in less than 2 weeks!!!! Yay.

Not much going on today. Yesterday I came home tired. I went to bed at 6.30PM after I had my dinner: half burrito. I woke up this morning at 7AM.  I was so pooped out. It was nice to be able to sleep that long though. I was too tired. Now today I feel ready to do some stuff. Maybe I will sew again. I miss sewing. I haven’t done it in weeks.

My husband sold his oldvespa yesterday. The bike was pretty beat up since my husband fell from it and the bike was bent all over the place. He sold it for $450. We’re going to save $350  and use $100 for this week and next week. We get paid next week. With the $350 from the sale of my husband’s vespa, we should have $2500 in saving now. Next week, we should be able to save $1000 so that would make the total to $3500 by the end of June. In July, my goal is to save $2500. So that should bring the total saving to $6000 by the end of July. I am pretty excited. Although the sucky part is that we’d have to pay minimum on our credit cards until we reach $10,000 in saving (which should be achieved before the end of the year). Then after that we can send half money to saving account and half to debt payment.

I am thinking I need to sell the junks around my house. Maybe do a big garage sale next weekend on Saturday. I can sell old books, magazines, dishes, old furnitures, etc.

As many of you know, I am expecting. I am on my week 11 of pregnancy. Still young but I am glad it is because that means I have time to save!!! LOL. A friend of mine is expecting too and I know she makes at least $20 – 25K less than me but she has been splurging on things such as $3000 cruise with her family and hundred dollars computer table and some other stuff. I know she has been telling me she has CC debts and student loan too. How can she afford that? I was going to NY this July to meet a penpal of mine who is visiting from Norway but unfortunatelly I will have to save that plan for another time. After doing some calculation, it would cost $2000 for me and my husband to take a 4 day 3 night trip to NYC. That is just not in the budget right now. I am bummed yes but what can I do? I do not want to put any more charges on my CC thinking I will pay it off later. I have already done that A LOT and look at my CC statements!!! They are still the same amount if not more from months ago when I acquired the debts. Sigh. I am just sick of acquiring more and more debts and no money for me or my family. I want to save  money. Spend a little but save more. I deserve the money. I work for it.

We still have about $8000 left to pay on my husband’s car and then for my car, we have about $15,000. Dang. A LOT!!!!!!!! Then I owe $5000 with Chase (0% until March 2010) and I have about $3000 total on Discover card and Wamu. Holy crap. Only a financial miracle will get me out of this mess. If I can keep working until the end of 2010, I should be able to pay everything off. Well, the $5000 is actually the money that I had to loan to my mom and she said she is going to pay me back–keep my fingers crossed. If she pays me back that means, I will only have to pay the $3000 on my discover and wamu. I hope she pays before March 2010.

In January 2010, the baby is going to be born. We’ll have to send the baby to the daycare to start in March/April 2010. We looked around (online) and most daycares charge between $700 – 800/month for infant. My dream/big goal is to save $30,000 by March 2010 (after I get $10K in bonus money from work–keep fingers crossed). The reason I want to save that much is with the economy going the way it is going right now, I am very afraid of losing my job. I am afraid the company would be closed all of the sudden. I just want to prepare for the worst that’s all. I am really scared. I think my company is safe but you never know. I pray so that at least my husband and I can save more and more money.

However, assuming our take-home paychecks are the same next year $3400+$2000 = $5400/month, we still should be able to save between $1000 – $1500 per month after cost of daycare is being accounted for in our budget. I hope I will get a raise but even if I don’t get one, I will still be thankful for having a full time job, at least, when the economy is so beat up.

Darn. I am craving for some burritos now. I hope my baby won’t look like a burrito when he/she comes out. LOL.

I want to go shopping but I have to wait until I get my paycheck next week. I hope I can squeeze $50 out of my budget next week to buy some maternity clothes. Need more tops and pants. I have bought enough baby items for now. I still need to buy diapers and other neccessities but I will wait until later. Maybe I can put them on my registry. So far I know I am going to put several boxes of diapers, a high chair, maybe a stroller, one car seat, baby gym playmat, some toys, and bunch of gift cards!!!! I think I’d rather get money than anything else. We have the majority of the  nursery items covered already–bought most of them from craigslist  and some on store’s clearance.  

K. Time for lunch.


Posted in budget

end of week 9

Today is the end of week 9 of my pregnancy. I still cannot believe I am pregnant.

This morning I woke up and all I could think about was having waffles for breakfast. So I asked my husband to take the to get one. We drove to IHOP and it was so full. I had to pick up my litte sister, so I told my husband just to take me to Sonic. I had the popcorn chicken and fries. The baby didn’t like it. I ate 2 popcorn chicken pieces and my stomach went gargling.

Then after I took my little sister home, my husband and I went back to IHOP. I got myself a plate of waffles with strawberries topping. Waffles never tasted so good in my life. I felt so satisfied. And the baby was happy.

I am now home. Relaxing. So happy that my baby is made it to 9 weeks :)