Thanksgiving is over. I had a lot of fun this Thanksgiving. My husband helped me cook–very nice of him. The turkey came out great according to my husband. I did not make pumpkin cake because after baking pumpkin pie, I thought we had way too much foods for 2 people. So I plan to make the pumpkin cake today instead.
On Thanksgiving night, my husband went to bed at a little bit past 10. I am not sure if he was tired from the turkey he ate or from playing football the morning of Thanksgiving with the guys from our neighborhood.
On Black Friday, my husband and I spent time shopping. Not much though. We weren’t on planning to spend much money so we didn’t really look for anything. Just browsing through stuff. My Christmas shopping list is pretty short. I pretty much only have … mmm, let’s see… about nine people maybe. My husband, my bestfriend, my facialist, my little sister (from Big Brothers Big Sisters)+ her 2 siblings, the postman, and the 2 little boys who live next door. So far, I am done shopping for my little sister+2 siblings, the 2 boys next door, and the postman. I might get some toys for the 2 little boys next door next week. I will see if there are any sales going on closer to Christmas at the toy shop. Or perhaps I will buy them bunch of used books from the library. The gift of knowledge is precious from where I come from.
I am thinking about Christmas right now. I don’t want it to be over… I know it hasn’t even started yet. I like the feeling of anticipating Christmas. Everyone is in a good mood and feeling joyful. I love those feelings. I want that feeling for the rest of my life.
Thanksgiving is here. I have a mixed feeling about the holiday today. But most of all, I am so thankful for everything I have in my life at this moment in time. First of all, I am thankful for my husband. Then I am thankful for my families. I am thankful for the two new wonderful friends I have at work. I am thankful for my pets. I am thankful for my health, my luck, fortune, my job, my church, my faith, my house, my community, my car, my everything I have.
I don’t know what next year’s Thanksgiving is going to bring but for today, I would like to savor every minute of it with joy and happiness. For one day, I want to feel that. For today, I want to remove my worries and sadness. There is not time to worry about anything today. It is time to enjoy life and to be thankful for what we have no matter how little it is.
I wish I could help all the less fortunate this year. Those who lost their homes due to foreclosure. Those who are homeless. Those who are old and sick. Those who have no money left in their pockets.
Yesterday, as I drove home from work, I passed the homeless center in downtown and there was an awfully long line for the dinner being served. I wish we could do that everyday; every year. Serve foods to those who are less fortunate.
Today, my husband and I are celebrating Thanksgiving at home without families. My families live outside the country and they don’t even celebrate Thanksgiving so no point of even mentioning it to them. My husband’s families live far away from us. So it’s just me and my husband.
I have became a vegetarian for over two years so I have not eaten Turkey for Thansgiving for that long. And today is no difference for me. This year though, my husband has requested me to cook him Turkey for his Thanksgiving dinner. So on the weekend, we went get Turkey. I am going to roast it after I come back from church today at 1.
I have so many other things I am going to make today: mashed potatoes, green beans, mixed green leaves, sweet potatoes casserole, corn, honey glazed carrots, rolls, stuffing, homemade cranberry sauce, pumpkin pie and pumpkin cake.
I am off to start cooking. I want to wish everyone a Happy and Blessed Thanksgiving. Remember to thank those you hold dearly in your heart.
I will take a break from posting rants about my job tonight.
I am happy to see the money in our saving account grows. The local bank now has $1000 in it and Emigrant Direct has about $3600 in it. We are $1400 away from fulfilling our first phase of emergency fund. I hope to fulfill that before the end of the year although that means big sacrifices, which equals to no exessive shopping during the holiday. Thankfully, that should be easy enough considering we don’t have to buy any gifts for anyone this year. I only plan on getting my best friend and my facialist something small for Christmas. My budget is about $100 – $125 for 2 people. I will be buying my bestfriend a jacket. I went shopping with her once and she told me how she wanted to have a jacket that she could wear to work. We looked for one and she found several but she didn’t think she should get them. I tried to persuade her but she said she’d wait to get one. For my facialist, I am going to get her an assortment of make-ups maybe from Sephora. I’ll try to go to Ann Taylor Loft and Sephora tomorrow to see if they have anything for sale.
I am not sure what to get for my husband. I am sure he’ll tell me he does not want anything for Christmas. Very typical of him. I want to get him something meaningful but I don’t know what he wants.
I have a lot on my Christmas list. But I don’t expect anyone to buy them for me. Not even my husband. I’d feel bad if he buy me something. He bought me a lot of gifts this year already. I think we should scale down this year and skip buying things for each other. We got ourselves Wii and Wii fit already about a week ago. And that cost us a little over $300. We also bought new portable heater ($40) and will need another one ($40). We bought 2 rugs for $200. Just today my husband bought 2 used Wii games for close to $60. I shopped for tons of new undies $150. We need 2 new rugs for the master bedroom ($200) and a bookcase for the family room ($100 – 150). I would like to purchase a real Christmas tree on the day after Thanksgiving (not sure$$$?). I think I might want a small tree this year just to put inside our family room. Last year we got ourselves big Christmas tree.
So, yeah I think we need to slow down on buying things we don’t really need. Plus, my husband told me that this year’s black friday’s deals aren’t as good as last year’s. I wanted to get a small flat screen TV to put in our master bedroom but I think I can wait on that. A new laptop is also on my list but I think I’ll wait on that as well.
I am actually selling my stuff on Ebay right now. I am going to post some more this weekend. I am just trying to get rid of stuff I don’t need anymore.
Someone was fired from work today. Sigh. I feel bad for that person. How could you fired someone before the holiday???? What kind of cold hearted person are you??? I guess that says a lot about my company as well. Sigh.
My job situation is not improving at all. I still feel miserable at work. Each day is a pain. If it is not because of the strength and courage that God gives me every day, I don’t know how else I would go on.
I am begging the Lord Jesus Christ, Virgin Mary, Saint Jude, Saint Rita, and Saint Padre to grant my request: please find me a way so I can financially afford to quit my job.
I know a lot of people would say I am crazy for wanting to leave my job in this economy. I know a lot of people are wishing they had a job right now. I believe God knows what is best for each one of us. I know God will tell me what I need to be doing pretty soon. I keep on praying and I know God will NEVER abandon me. He has answered my prayers before and I know he will answer me again this time.
Giveaway was fun for me to do. And as promised, I have a winner!!! Congratulations to Lisa in Virginia !!!! She is the lucky girl to win brand new soundtrack CD of Sex and the City!!!
Congratulations Lisa!!! Enjoy your new CD.
Today was a beautiful day. I was officially welcomed at the Catholic church. Today was the first rite of my journey in becoming a Catholic. We were “introduced” to the priest and everyone at church. Everyone in my class was so happy. I know I was. Today was the day when I received my first cross. And I felt this cross was very special to me. I have been wearing it all day today since mass this morning and I feel happy when I wear it.
At mass today, I prayed again. I mentioned my requests to Lord Jesus Christ, Virgin Mary, and Saint Jude. I really, really need their help at this moment.
If you are reading this post, please pray for me. I would like to be able to afford to quit my job and to finally figure out what I need to be doing with my life. I would like to be doing something that means something to me so 30 years from today when I look back to this day, I’ll say, I am glad I did it. So please, pray for me. I know we are strangers but please know that I pray to God for each of you who prays for me, may God return your kindness thousands more.
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Yes I am dreading coming to work tomorrow morning. Have to deal with my boss again. And the mean trainer again. Arrrghhh. I prayed for a miracle to happen so I don’t ever have to come back to work–and be able to afford it. Well, I did not win the lottery so I don’t know how else I could afford to quit my job by tomorrow. I make it clear to myself that I will only be staying at my job until April 2009. That is my limit. So far, I have only told my husband and Christina, the girl who sits next to me (she is actually from another department and we get along well, btw. I trust her).
Sometime next week, I plan to call the office of the department of education in town. They have received my resume and I would like to set up an interview with them. Speaking of teaching, two of the people in my Catholic class are teachers. They are quite young actually. I never got to talk to them but I will try to talk to them next week. Who knows they’d let me shadow them at work for a day.
Tomorrow is Monday and that means I get to to go Novena mass at noon!! yay. I am always excited everytime I have the chance to pray at church.
Tonight I have to pray extra harder so I will be able to achieve where I need to be.
If you are praying for me, thank you so very much. God bless you.
It almost has been a crappy one year for me–work wise. I don’t know any other year that has gone this bad in my life. Since January 2008, I have been in an awful misery at work. From one position to another. I get the worst possible bosses of all bosses I could have at work. The first was a dictator-type boss. Then my now-boss can’t manage people at all. The first position was an energy-drainage job. I was so exhausted at work–12 hours shift work with various schedule. The new position is a regular Monday – Friday job but it is a dead boring job. I hate it so much. SO. VERY. MUCH.
I bought a lotto tonight. So let’s hope I win it. Because that would be sweet. And I would throw money giveaway right here on my blog. Wouldn’t that be nice? Oh and of course I’d donate lots to kids in 3rd world countries. And animal shelters. And hungry people. Then I can finally do what I want to do the most in my life: volunteer everyday for the rest of my life. Please hear my prayer, God. I will say thousands thanksgiving prayers.
I hate my job. I don’t know how many times I’ve said it and I think by now you know how much I hate my job. I want to be one of those lucky people who can say: I LOVE MY JOB!!!!!!!
Gosh I feel like a mess. I have a job I hate so much. I dread coming to work every single day. I want to quit my job. I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I only have close to $5000 in saving. I have a house that needs to be renovated. I have a plan to start a baby next year. I am in a serious mess. Total mess. The worst thing is, I have to admit, not knowing what I want to do with my life. I know I have to work. I know that. But I don’t know what I want to do. I don’t want to waste my life hopping from one job to another hoping to find happiness.
HELP!!!!!
I am so confused. I am so afraid. I am afraid I am not going to find another job. I am afraid I won’t make enough money. I am afraid I won’t be happy. I am so afraid. I don’t know what to do. I want to make money. I want to make my parents proud. I want to make my husband proud of me. I want to be happy with my life. I make good money but I am not happy. I want to make as much money as I make today but with much more dose of happiness in my life. How????? How do I do that? What do I need to do? I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know. I am so frustrated. I am tired of not knowing what I want to do. I feel like this is my responsibility to find out what I want in my life. And I am feeling so pressured right now because I really don’t know what to do. I don’t want to have other people to tell me what to do.
Jesus, I need you so bad right now. I need you to help me. I need your help so much right now. I need a sign. I need a confirmation in my heart. Please let me know what I need to be doing with my life. Please let me know soon. Please Jesus, please let me know.
For those of you who read my blog. Will you please pray for me? Please pray so that God send his guidance in my jorney of finding happiness in my life and finding the purpose of my life. I pray for God to return your kindness thousands more.
I really, really, really need some time to think about what I want to do with my life. Clearly, I have been complaining about my work too much and how much I hate it. Granted, I feel very lucky to even have a job right now in this economy but what good is a job if you are miserable at work every day. I am just dont know what to do right now. I would like to quit but cannot afford to do it. I would like to stay but I am so miserable at work everyday and every minute. I am tired of complaining everyday. And I hate that I cannot quit. Everyday all I do is dreading about coming to work. It is not good. I know that. My husband has been listening to my complains and he does not know what to do either.
I have been praying to God and asking for an answer. A sign. Something to tell. Something. Something at all. I haven’t gotten any signs from God yet. I go to church every Sunday and Monday. I pray the novenas. I say many, many prayers. No signs yet. I don’t know what else to do. I have opened my mind, my eyes, my ears, my heart, and my soul for God to tell me.
I simply don’t know what to do.
I am confused. I feel like I am blind and deaf and I have to cross the busy street. I want to scream to the world. Asking for direction. Asking for guidance. I don’t know what to do. I really don’t. I want to do something with my life.
I hate my job. Yes, this is the new position at work that I just started almost 4 months ago. My boss is clueless of what he is doing. He does not like 2 of the workers in our group and he mentioned it to me. He does not get along with one of the guys. It’s just weird. I don’t like it. Then, I have a mean trainer. She is so mean. The ironic thing is, I donated my 8-hour vacation time to her when she lost her mom in February. When she asked me to do things for her, she wouldn’t want to show me how to do it. When I make mistakes, she gets really mad. Oh and she is pregnant too now. So she wants everyone to care for her. I don’t really care that much though. She is so mean. I hope her kid will not be as mean as her.
Ok. Here I am complaining again. I don’t want to complain. I want to do something for myself. I want to have the gut. The gut to quit my job. I want to just do it. I want to. I have been wanting to do it. I wish I could do it. I wish I could just tell my boss that I am quiting. I wish God would let me win the lotto.
It’s really painful to go to work everyday. Dreading every minute of it. I hate it so much. I can’t stand working there. Everyday is a misery.
I don’t want to go back there on Monday. I want to quit my job. I really do.
But if I quit, I wouldn’t get my bonus in March next year. I would lose the health insurance. I would lose my salary. We have savings but I wonder how long that is going to last. I hate my job so much. And I don’t know why every position I get is like this. I don’t know why the people that I work with are so mean. I don’t know why.
I am just feeling frustrated right now. I wish I had my family here. My parents would have helped me in any way they can. I wish my husband was making way more money.
I hate my job. I don’t like my boss. I don’t feel comfortable working where I am right now. My job sucks. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it so much I can throw up right now just thinking about it.
Often time, I get so streesed out at work but I wouldn’t tell anyone. I’d spend my lunch hour sitting at the cafetaria in my building to read the Bible. And that usually calms me down. And I get really happy when I am home. But then the night comes, and before I go to bed I’d pray so that Jesus would help me to get through the next day. Then I get sad and I get all depressed thinking about coming to work the next day. I never want to think about it but I do all the time. When the morning comes, I get so mad thinking about coming to work. I am dreading it every single day. Often I ask myself, why am I doing this to myself? But I can’t find the asnwer yet.
I don’t want to come back there on Monday but I don’t know how. I don’t know how I can afford to just quit this job? I really don’t want to go back there on Monday. I really don’t. I need a miracle to happen. Only a miracle can stop me from coming to work on Monday. But how? how? how? how?
I have been saying countless novenas and been praying many many many prayers……………. I don’t want to give up. I know a miracle will happen. I want to believe it. I really do. I don’t want to go back to work on Monday. I really don’t. Please Jesus, do not let me go back to work on Monday. I will do whatever to not have to come back to work on Monday. Please please please. I don’t want to. I want to do something else. I want to do something else.
The holidays are coming. If I quit, we wouldn’t have money for the holidays. If I quit, we would be without health insurance. If I quit, I don’t know how we can afford to continue living. What am I going to do?????? Of course I am going to find another job but I want to do something I enjoy. Something I really want to do.
I want a sign. For God to tell me what to do. To give me guidance of what I need to be doing with my life. I am tired of going around trying every job there is out there. I want to do what I enjoy doing. I don’t want to waste my life.
